Friday, April 30, 2010

Do you really want to know the truth?
well yea i do get self concious :( i do get those thoughts of not
feeling good enough or not feeling pretty or having a nice figger.
I do get upset and i do criticize myself and pick faults in me :(.
Yea it really gets me down. But i can't help it..

Thursday, April 29, 2010

this was a time when we were going crazy.
eghh, i wasn't going to upload this but i did lol. my crazy
life with my crazy boyfriend that i love hugely ;D
Baby, you've made me smile so much lately :).
No matter if i've been sick and you caught it off me hehe,
you've made me laugh almost every single day for 3 weeks,
I swear. I have been hypo ;o, playful/annoying, you've made
me so happy lately. Our relationship has been amazing but after
these 3 weeks? it's been beyond amazing. I have loved every
moment of it, but I love you ;) but I also miss you when you're
at work :( like now for example :'(
I can hear you you know.
you stare at me more than 5Omillion times a day!
What is your problem?
"see that girl there?". grrr, what the
fuck is honestly your problem?!?!
i'm not completely deaf and stupid.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


This weird girl at school keeps looking at me : /
people say she's a lesbian and that she looks like it..
but i'm not sure? : /. It creeps me out so much.
Just everywhere I go there's this pair of
eyes that constantly stare at me.
It's creepy and anoying. I feel so uncomfterable,
eghh it makes me shiver. ew

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Despite your disability, I want to say; 'thankyou to you' for really making my day brighten up. You really poured your heart into telling me who you really were and you weren't afraid to say that you get bullied and that you suffer from a learning disability. You weren't afraid if I was to turn around and judge you for it, like people already do. I would never judge you for being different. Because at some stage in our life we all know what it feels like to be different and to suffer from something horrible, but I think that if you can make one person smile and really inspire their day, i believe they feel so much better inside, ways that would probably suprise you. I believe that no matter how dull and boring and maybe to some insignificant you may be, I think you're absolutely inspiring and I think the way you approach people with something that means alot to you, is really beautiful.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I don't know what the hell is wrong with you?
you're being completely irrational.
Like you wouldn't realise how irrational
you're being. God, just fucking walk away from me like nothing matters,
cause obviously it doesn't...   to you

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

you really,really,really,really, REALLY know what?
I wish you had never ever, EVER done drugs.
Maybe you could have meant something to me
Man, I feel so sorry for you..
I wanted to say something : /,
but it wasn't really my business I do want to say that
 I hope you're ok and even if we aren't tight or good
friends, I want to say that I hope you really are ok. 
You will do fine and honestly, you're so beautiful : ).
So don't dwell on it all, you'll be ok : )
no comments ;(
Man, i'm sick of people fuckn thinking that everything
I write on my blog, is about Duane.
Let me get this straight; IT ISN'T! So now that you've
established that, keep it tucked in your seedless minds
and stop fuckn dictating what I say. Cause you have
absolutely no idea.
Look, keep yourself occupied.
Don't stress about the things that make you
feel like shit. Ok, it's hard. But I mean geeze,
 those fuckwitts are nothing but negative pieces of
 shit. And i'm sure that you want to
beat the fuck out of them, but really?
once you've calmed down,
read over the past,
and analysed it in your mind,
you realise that honestly; you couldn't give
atleast the simplest of satisfaction.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I drink tea now, i think it smells
soo good and tastes so nice : ). i'm not usually
a hot drink person,
but this is actually so yummy!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

yesterday i went to the zoo with my family, i saw soo many amazing little animals! i even caught a bright green lizard catching a fly on my phone, it was so cool because they do it soo fast! ; ). I really enjoyed seeing the otters and this little blue penguin was in quarintine by itself in this huuuge room, it was sitting at the back of the room by itself in the corner, it was sad, poor little guy. I saw bears being fed, tigers being fed, they even have this operating room now which you are able to sit outside of and watch them operate on animals to see how they've passed away or if they're sick and stuff.. I didn't stay around to watch that though, none of us did. i had a good day