Everyone stop picking on Richard :(

 it's soo mean..

 Gah, go stick a dick
in your mouth.
Bitch.

"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."

Dear A.G, So it's been about a month now and still nothing has been changed. I'm not going to say that I knew this was going to happen because yea, I did have a bit of hope.. but I did have a feeling that you you don't really care & "that it's just life" of your understanding. I still don't understand this family dinamics thing? I thought that in this world, family was meant to be here when no-one else was and mean more to eachother than anybody could?. Guess i'm wrong. I wish it was like that, I wish with everything. A few days ago, I found out that after our private talk, the whole family now knew. I don't know what the hell of a problem you have with me? God, i'm just a fucking teenager and you hate me and my sister already? it's not like I have anything to prove you don't anyways? cause you never ring or see us. How can me and my sister change this on our own when it isn't our mistake?. If you can ring A.R up first thing in the morning then why cant you ring us up and see how we are? better yet, why cant you just stop being a bitch. You're so horrible!

*I made a new book lastnight.

 I wrote a page and a half full of

beautful things that I remember we did to eachother before we got together ;)

I dunno why i'm sad :(

Because it'll always be Duane.
I don't want anybody else. So stop trying..
 please, you're making my life difficult.
 I don't want you and I couldn't think for a
second why you would even think that you had a
 chance? I wouldn't drop Duane for anyone.
He's my boyfriend, the person that I really really love and adore,
so stop all this pretending and bulshit.
I don't love you and I don't want you so stop trying.
 You're only just going to get your hopes up.
THIS is the way it is.

"At times the world may seem an unfriendly and sinister place, but believe that there is much more good in it than bad. All you have to do is look hard enough. and what might seem to be a series of unfortunate events may in fact be the first steps of a journey"



Lemony Snicket

Sometimes it's hard, it gets frustrating.
Sometimes I feel like i'm going to explode!
 But then in a split second, i'll say
 "things don't have to esculate, there's no need to be upset or negative."
Why cant other people see the better side to life and disputes?

I really, really, really..

 want a Killswitch Engage band top ;(

"Forget about the shit that we've been through,

I wanna stay here forever and always."