Monday, June 13, 2011

Dealing with a break-ups hard.
Everyone goes through this and it's common,
so if our whole universe can handle drama
 like this then so can I ;D. I know that there's
someone else out there that's having a much of
a worse day than I am, so I should be happy that
i'm not them. I have too much to live for then
chasing mindless boys. I guess that sounds a little
harsh, but as a quote from a dearly respected
friend of mine, it really helped me out inside.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

I wish that you weren't so stubborn like me

Monday, April 18, 2011

I'm not just an off and on button -_-.
I could have a better conversation with somebody who actually does
text me back and isn't ashamed of me gah! Oh and especially
somebody who does initially want to see me.
What an utter waste of time and my priorities.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

I shouldn't have to justify the way that I feel about you but you just don't seem to understand how much I adore and like you already

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I'm sick of crying and trying to act like i'm ok. I want to be happy again and enjoy having butterflies flutter in and out of my tummy. If only everything was easy, but it isn't. I duno how to cope with being on my own beacause for two years of my life I havn't been on my own. And now it's scary, literally i'm scared of being on my own because I havn't learnt to grow the fuck up and move the fuck on. I can't un-do these fucking laces to these dam shoes, they won't come off. How can I step out of these shoes and into brand new ones? i can't. Not just yet.
so I fucking love you but..
 I like him a little and..
 I can't have you but..
I mightent be able to have him and..
 I might just have to totally shoot myself in the head
-_- fml.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Thursday, January 20, 2011

"Right now it's so amazing, how you had so many faces,
and you're not that person I thought that I had fell so deep
in love with..
you changed up your make up, your DNA, I can't recogonise

you, you're a stranger to me, I feel so betrayed.. what a waste
of my heart.. and faith..." 

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I can't believe what's happened. The pain that you put me through
and put all my neighbours and friends and Dylan through. It was atrocious.
No really it was, who the fuck grabs a girl by the collar in front of broad
daylight and slams her against some randoms fence, but not only that,
then grabs her head and smashes it into the concrete path and then
fucking punches her in the head?! what the fuck?
what kind of fucking disgusting monster are you? I fucking dumped you

because you're a psycho and everyone knew I could do better. It took me over 2
complete years before I fully sore it for myself. I'm disappointed in myself that
I wasted SO much time on thinking you would change for me because you loved
me.. But I guess for you it was a different type of love..... unfortunately.
-I really did fall for you and i really loved and adored you, it tore me apart to let you
go. Of course it would. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? seriously why
would you do this to me? You have actually sizzled my insides up and I feel
like throwing them all up in your direct face. Goddamn, I'm thankful that I met
Dylan. He's mature and a better man then you were.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Why does Kaitlyn and Ash have to be so amazingly sexy!
lucky ;)

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Who knows how long Ive been lost in the dark.
Followed closely by footsteps of my failures.
What can I do to alter my perception of the way and truth?
Let this burden drift away
Ok so I have alot of bruises. Nearly knocked myself out a billion times in the past week. I
am so freaking tense and pissed off that my Dad will not accept the fact that i'm groing up
and i'm a teenager now. Not a kid, not an adult but smack bang, right in the middle!
you make me feel like i'm in heaven already baby. Even though i'm pretty much drunk right next to your sister, i'm always going to remember the sweet and adorable times that we've spent together
i love getting drunk with you and being in your arms afterwards

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

You make my fucking life feel like fucking shit!
I bloody hate you's for it! You're trying to

control me and you arent even fucking blood related but there's nothing I can fucking do! ARGHHHH!!!!!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

So when my world turns upside down, I turn it right back over and pray for the greatest
but look foward to the best. What a pleasurale day that I had today. Normal school day and

all, but gee, I must of had a pretty super sleep because I felt fab ;D hehe. Would like to say
that in ethics today, I HUGELY hated the fact that scientists do animal testing. (Although
I already knew that) Nasty little buggers out there. If I ruled the world, I would grab all you animal
torturers and do it all back to you. You have no sympathy and don't know how much you're
actually physically hurting that poor animal. Animal cruelty is my strongest weakness. Why not
test it on actual humans that would like to die? you would solve two problems there. Get rid of
people that don't want to live etc and let poor, helpless animals free.
I think i'm just not that inportant anymore.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

I wish you didn't go for such a pig headed jerk.
He treats you like crap, he doesn't even go out with you yet he still manages
to control your feelings and upsetting you. He says he has feelings for his ex, but we catch him on the bus with his
ex before her and then he doesn't know what to say.. except, "we're just friends, don't get the wrong idea :(" So why is
she wearing a dress that is short and it's freezing and raining cold outside? uhh I think we all know why she was wearing it.
He has a million girls after him. He even flirts with them every single day.. Everyone sees. How can he have the guts
to say that he likes you? truly how can he?
C'mon girl, wake up. Don't go for a loser like him, He's a fag that doesn't deserve

someone as perfect as you. You're amazing and beautiful, you could get alot better
than him.

Friday, September 24, 2010


Thursday, September 23, 2010

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I love your smell.
 It helps me sleep when I wrap myself in your
hoodie all snuggled tight in my bed tehe

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

"Walk and touch peace every moment.

Walk and touch happiness every moment.
Each step brings a fresh breeze.
Each step makes a flower bloom.
Kiss the Earth with your feet.
Bring the Earth your love and happiness.
The Earth will be safe
when we feel safe in ourselves."

Kiss the Earth by Thich Nhat Hanh

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

you're beautiful ;)

Monday, August 16, 2010

Oh my baby boy, I miss you soo much.
I havn't been able to see you for like a week and now 2 days :(
apart from wednesday. I'm going crazy not being able to see you
I miss you so freaken much. Hmm love sick! ;) I miss our cuddles and
our kisses tehe, and my massages that you give me awww your such
a sweet and kind boyfriend to me. :) You're the bestest boyfriend I could
ever ask for hehe, i loveee you baby Dee
kisses ;D