Wednesday, April 14, 2010

I hate that i worry too much :'(
it's kind of sad in way way cause i suffer from anxiety..
I woke up today at 12:3Oam and felt like i couldn't breathe,
i was panicing cause i didn't know what to do and Duane was
all I could think about :'( I felt really scared. i actually felt like i
was on the verge of dying. I tried to go back to sleep, but then
my heart just started beating faster and it became loud, like
my own virtual heart was pumping out of my chest. It was soo
scary :'( it happened more than 6times atleast. In the end I gave
up, I had been trying to get to sleep for 3 and a half hours,
now, it's quarter past 5 in the morning and i'm wide awake
but so scared :'(. I talked to my mum about it cause she woke up
around 1am and she said it's ok and calmed me down a bit.
I just worry way too much.. and sometimes it just gets the
best of me :'(


  1. i'm pretty sure i have anxiety too. ;o half the time i can't sleep unless the light besides my bed is on. i completely freak out when kelly, mum or someone doesn't text back and i think they're hurt or something. it's horrible. i can't even stay home alone at nights for a few hours even lol. i'm so dumb! ;o

  2. That's exactly the same with me ash :/ i get scared at night.. i feel like somethings under my bed or in my wardrobe. egh it's so creepy! i feel like it'll grab my feet if i hop out of bed! I hear creeks n shit like that too :/. I can only get to sleep if someones up in the loune and the dining room light is on cause it reflects into my room. Kind sucks ae?
    but it's good to know i'm not the only one : ) x