The most selfish 1 letter word: I. Avoid it. The most satisfying 2 letter word: We. Use it. The most poisonous 3 letter word: Ego. Kill it. The most used 4 letter word: Love. Value it. The most pleasing 5 letter word: Smile. Keep it. The fastest spreading 6 letter word: Rumour. Ignore it. The hardest working 7 letter word: Success. Achieve it. The most enviable 8 letter word: Jealousy. Distance it. The most powerful 9 letter word: Knowledge. Acquire it. The most essential 10 letter word: Confidence. Trust it.

Today it helped when you were here,
i felt better. Still quite tired though..
but lying in you arms trying to fall asleep
made me feel just that little bit better : )

I hate that i worry too much :'(
it's kind of sad in way way cause i suffer from anxiety..
I woke up today at 12:3Oam and felt like i couldn't breathe,
i was panicing cause i didn't know what to do and Duane was
all I could think about :'( I felt really scared. i actually felt like i
was on the verge of dying. I tried to go back to sleep, but then
my heart just started beating faster and it became loud, like
my own virtual heart was pumping out of my chest. It was soo
scary :'( it happened more than 6times atleast. In the end I gave
up, I had been trying to get to sleep for 3 and a half hours,
now, it's quarter past 5 in the morning and i'm wide awake
but so scared :'(. I talked to my mum about it cause she woke up
around 1am and she said it's ok and calmed me down a bit.
I just worry way too much.. and sometimes it just gets the
best of me :'(

Thankyou to my followers x, you guys are so lovely : )

Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.


Howard Thurman

Yesterday you made me feel sososo happy : )
 the thing i complain about and worry about the most..
you just dropped on your knees and kissedkissedkissed.
you're so sweet and beautiful : )
            you make me happy

You made me feel so beautiful inside : )

I felt like I had gummy bears and rattle snakes

jiggling my insides hehe.

I'm older now

Everything's just alcohol, drugs, boys, and sex in my age group.
I miss the imignation i used to have when i was little.
I miss how we used to climb trees and pretend that they
were our homes or cages where the "baddies" captured us.
I often think about you and your brother, you guys were
best friends to me. We used to play everyday on your tramp
and even in your paddling pool. I used to stay for dinner and
often stay the night. I remember under the deck you had
this concrete hole thing and we used to pretend to make
potion in it with the spikes that came off your big pine tree.
I remember when I moved away and I came and visited
every now and then. You guys were lonely and sad when
I left and I wish I never had to, I wish that I could've stayed
there with you guys and played after school all the time like
we always did. It hurt me, it was like I had lost the most
understanding people that knew me from the heart. It's days
like these that I wish I was a little girl again, where problems
meant nothing and boys were just a feeling that didn't
evolve into anything, where drugs didn't get the best of
your friends and where sex didn't even cross your mind..
I hope you're doing well and you've still got the same spirit
that you once carried.

Love Ferny xo

I hate any kind of animal cruelty.
I think it's so fucking horrible and I think that
the people that treat animals with such disrespect
are horrible. How can you put an animal through
so much distress and watch it hurt? how can you
come out feeling like you're so strong and manly for
killing it or making it so weak? that to me is sooo
mean it upsets me to the max. I hate to see or hear
an animal that's been tortured in such a serene way.

Everybody has a secret world inside of them. All of the people of the world, I mean everybody. No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds. Not just one world. Hundreds of them. Thousands maybe.

Neil Gaiman

I'm so over your bulshit now. I used to believe in so much, now, you just treat me so bad and you never listen.. It needs to change because i love you. I love you like crazy. I never knew how controling it would be over me, it's hectic. I think you're absolutely amazing and at times, you can make me feel like the most special girl in the world. But right now, maybe it's a phase? or maybe just because certain things are happening and you don't mean to. But things have to change..

I WANT THIS ONE TO BE DIFFERENT.