Dealing with a break-ups hard.
Everyone goes through this and it's common,
so if our whole universe can handle drama
 like this then so can I ;D. I know that there's
someone else out there that's having a much of
a worse day than I am, so I should be happy that
i'm not them. I have too much to live for then
chasing mindless boys. I guess that sounds a little
harsh, but as a quote from a dearly respected
friend of mine, it really helped me out inside.

I wish that you weren't so stubborn like me

I'm not just an off and on button -_-.

I could have a better conversation with somebody who actually does

text me back and isn't ashamed of me gah! Oh and especially

somebody who does initially want to see me.

What an utter waste of time and my priorities.

I shouldn't have to justify the way that I feel about you but you just don't seem to understand how much I adore and like you already

I'm sick of crying and trying to act like i'm ok. I want to be happy again and enjoy having butterflies flutter in and out of my tummy. If only everything was easy, but it isn't. I duno how to cope with being on my own beacause for two years of my life I havn't been on my own. And now it's scary, literally i'm scared of being on my own because I havn't learnt to grow the fuck up and move the fuck on. I can't un-do these fucking laces to these dam shoes, they won't come off. How can I step out of these shoes and into brand new ones? i can't. Not just yet.

Ok,

so I fucking love you but..

 I like him a little and..

 I can't have you but..

I mightent be able to have him and..

 I might just have to totally shoot myself in the head

-_- fml.

"Right now it's so amazing, how you had so many faces,
and you're not that person I thought that I had fell so deep
in love with..
you changed up your make up, your DNA, I can't recogonise
you, you're a stranger to me, I feel so betrayed.. what a waste
of my heart.. and faith..." 

I can't believe what's happened. The pain that you put me through
and put all my neighbours and friends and Dylan through. It was atrocious.
No really it was, who the fuck grabs a girl by the collar in front of broad
daylight and slams her against some randoms fence, but not only that,
then grabs her head and smashes it into the concrete path and then
fucking punches her in the head?! what the fuck?
what kind of fucking disgusting monster are you? I fucking dumped you
because you're a psycho and everyone knew I could do better. It took me over 2
complete years before I fully sore it for myself. I'm disappointed in myself that
I wasted SO much time on thinking you would change for me because you loved
me.. But I guess for you it was a different type of love..... unfortunately.
-I really did fall for you and i really loved and adored you, it tore me apart to let you
go. Of course it would. What the fuck am I supposed to do now? seriously why
would you do this to me? You have actually sizzled my insides up and I feel
like throwing them all up in your direct face. Goddamn, I'm thankful that I met
Dylan. He's mature and a better man then you were.

Why does Kaitlyn and Ash have to be so amazingly sexy!

lucky ;)

Who knows how long Ive been lost in the dark.
Followed closely by footsteps of my failures.
What can I do to alter my perception of the way and truth?
Let this burden drift away