I'm sick of crying and trying to act like i'm ok. I want to be happy again and enjoy having butterflies flutter in and out of my tummy. If only everything was easy, but it isn't. I duno how to cope with being on my own beacause for two years of my life I havn't been on my own. And now it's scary, literally i'm scared of being on my own because I havn't learnt to grow the fuck up and move the fuck on. I can't un-do these fucking laces to these dam shoes, they won't come off. How can I step out of these shoes and into brand new ones? i can't. Not just yet.

Ok,

so I fucking love you but..

 I like him a little and..

 I can't have you but..

I mightent be able to have him and..

 I might just have to totally shoot myself in the head

-_- fml.